The Mood of My Art.

The only time I paint is when I am in a great mood, calm, and happy.

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Many years ago, there was an incident in my life causing me to feel so much anger and hatred inside. After grabbing the only angry color I owned and taking over a canvas that I was saving for a different piece, I began painting with my hands using the brightest red which was a color I never imagined myself to use... all the while, music in the background blared so loud you could feel the vibration through the floor. For hours I painted my anger out till I had nothing left inside. Years later, I couldn't look at the painting nor did I want to own it anymore because it reminded me of such a horrible time in my life which I wanted nothing but to forget its existence. My son wanted it in his room and we hung it there but I still felt so unsettled inside knowing the reason why I painted it. Every bad memory was embedded into that canvas. There came a day when I met someone who absolutely loved that painting... a friend of my sons. Within moments and without any hesitation, I asked if he and his family wanted that painting and could give it more life and appreciation than I could give it. Because honestly, I truly wanted to throw it away and never see it again in my home. It took a little convincing to my son giving it away to his friend but after he learned the feeling it gave me, he shortly agreed.

Ever since that painting was signed, I vowed never paint again when upset or angry because I knew that one day, that is all I would see when I viewed my art.

There was a time when I attempted a painting when I felt distraught inside and of course, after a day into it... I knew continuing that course wasn't right for me so I waited till I was settled inside and began repainting it all new which ended up being one of my favorite paintings. "Unleashed".

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"Ominous" Is hopefully in the care of someone who will love it much more than I ever did and can embrace it with a vision full of beauty, hope, and love...

This Moment is Mine....

I needed a getaway. My wish was my command as I boarded the plane and flew toward the sound of ocean waves. Sand between my toes. Margaritas. Strolls through wealthy neighborhoods and seeing designs I can only dream of. Endless shopping. And empty beaches. It was I alone on the sand and only my ears listening to the sound of crashing waves. Hints of sun touching my face. Warm breeze whisping my hair into my face over and over again. Three days of solitude.. A time of peace. I had plenty time to think and find myself again. And that.... I did. Before my trip was over, I was anxious to return home. When I did arrive home and walk through my front door, I welcomed all of it... arms wide open. I can't even explain right now how I am feeling although I do know without a doubt how I'm feeling. If I started to explain with one thing, just the tip of the iceberg would be told. Then it would lead to the next and the next and the next and before you knew it, everything I feel would be written, right here and right now. But I don't want to write about it. I just want to feel it. Absorb it. I don't fear it. I'm holding it close to me. This time... I don't want to share. It's all mine....................................................................

Crossroads...

When life has surprised me... good or bad, I find myself in deep thought.

When life hands me something good... I am grateful, humble, and know I am fortunate.

When life hands me something bad... I try to find my strength to find something good in it.

Right now... I have both. It is a crossroad I'm at and my mind is quiet because I'm listening.

I've been praying before I fall asleep at night. Not for much. I pray for strength. wisdom. and strength again.

This is my journey... and for now, it's my journey alone. My mind will guide me. My instincts will show me. And my heart will lead the way.

Life can be a rocky path and though I may stumble along the way... or others may stumble beside me getting in my way...

I know without a doubt and believe with all my heart ~ if I keep doing what I know is right. In the end, whatever the end may be. Everything will fall into place... I still have faith in that.

You say Potato... I say Potato...

Wow. I found it! I went to an old profile I had long ago. While I was revamping it.... I found a quote I've been looking for but couldn't remember!

Describes me to the T! when it comes to how I feel about religion.

"There is one God. The same God. Prove to me that there are two Gods! We just pray a different way and in a different language. You say potato, I say potato. You say Alah, I say God."

:-)

Light Play

It has been a rough start to my new year. So much is going on and I am doing everything in my power to not think about any of it. In the end, I know everything is going to work out perfectly and the way it should be. I am trying to have patience while I drive on this graveled path and I am starting to do fishtails. I need to rest my mind before I spin out control. Calm. That is what I need and I thought I'd rest my mind with something I enjoy then maybe I can finally sleep.

In addition to painting, I love taking photo's. One of my close friends trusted me with his nearly $3000 camera which I was almost afraid to accept his offer of letting me play with it for a day. But I couldn't resist and spent my day outside taking pictures of nearly everything that caught my interest. When I was finished, I printed and framed some of them and hung them in my sons room which looked pretty dang sharp!

Thought I'd share the pictures. Or some of them. That camera was pretty amazing :-) I was in love for a day.